New Wine & Waiting

In yesterday’s blog I talked about drinking bad wine as a metaphor for my feelings of frustration and being stuck in a situation I don’t yet see the way through, nor can I get a sense of timing on. I said I could see where I have been metaphorically speaking, drinking bad wine, and I said that I was going to find some new wineries.

For those of you who don’t know me, and for those of you who do, it is no surprise that I am one of the most terrible waiters in the world. I hate delays. I want it now, and I want all of it. I do not want to wait for the process to take place, I see the end results from the beginning, and that is where I want to go. Straight to the end result. I’m an all or nothing person, and when I’m ready to move, it grates me to feel as if I am being held back, because I can see the big picture, and I am always ready to act on it.

For me, waiting is like driving a Ferrari whose handbrake is stuck on hold.

Last night, my husband and I had a discussion about my discouragement, my sense of being stuck, my frustration over being forced to wait, my need to continue in a situation that I’ve been done with for a long time, when all I really want to do is cut and run. It’s an old conversation.

So what’s that got to do with wine? Well, wine takes time to ferment and it takes time to mature. Drink it too soon, and it’s bitter. Drink it too late, it’s vinegar. You have to drink it at the right time. 

So, this morning, my husband left a blog open for me to read. Our friend, Christine Sine, authoress of the blog ‘Godspace’, and who is the CEO of MustardSeed Associates, penned a beautiful liturgy on trusting God in times of economic crisis and recession, and she provided a lovely meditation to go with her liturgy. The reading and pondering filled my glass with new wine.

Does it mean I am happy about the wait? Not. But Christine’s thoughts have helped.

~ by zestymuz on October 9, 2008.